Thief of Time

31 Days

2009-10-16T04:05:02Z

It is exactly thirty-one days until I turn eighteen. 18. Eight and Ten. An adult. I'll be able to smoke, drink (in some places), have sex, drive a car alone, be tried as an adult in a court of law, buy porn (or read it online ;-] )... I'm so terrified. Ever since I turned fifteen, I've had major Peter Pan syndrome. I'll be cut loose from the adoption people so that's the household income going down, and my financial aid status at school will change. I can't say "I'm just a kid!" anymore. I can't slack off or be immature. My family expects better than that. I expect better than that, and we deserve better too. An entire era of my life- gone. I can't get it back, ever. I can't redo it, can't relive it, can't even remember a lot of it. I haven't given anything productive to the world, haven't tried to make it a better place or helped anyone but myself really. And all these years, the more I think about it the more immature I became, trying to recapture my childhood. I didn't learn as much as I should have or worked as hard and all these goals I had set for myself just evaporate like so much piss in the desert. Dammit. I think about the future; where will I be in five years? Ten years? I think about the day I die. Will I be alone? Will I be awake? Will I be old? Happy? Somehow my life just zooms out to that moment, and then flickers back over my whole life from there, and neither vision is ever pretty. In fact, it makes me so depressed I could just shoot myself and save the trouble of going through it. But I won't! It may... irk me but I'm not suicidal anymore. Just a bit upset.

Now that I've sat down and laid it all out, I seem to be going through my mid-life crisis two or three decades early. :sigh:

On a brighter note, I'm rererereading "The Truth" by Terry Pratchett and I'm loving Otto. He is the coolest vampire ever. The only vampire that could possibly be cooler than Otto von Chreik is Ambrose/Glitch as a vampire. <3 This book has the most marvelous quotations, too, but that's Pratchett for you. I could quote him until I was blue in the face and not finish his awesomeness.

Oh and I saw this book called "And Another Thing" by Eoin Colfer. It's a... sequel of sorts to H2G2 and wow, written by the person who wrote Artemis Fowl. Man I used to love that book... Gotta read it. And I reeeeeally need to finish playing Kingdom Hearts so I can play Kingdom Hearts 2 and Chain of Memories and finally 358/2 Days. At this rate I might just finish before Birth by Sleep and coded come out, though god knows if I'll have the proper platforms by then.

Still must see "9". I am planning to go as 3 to ALA and I haven't even seen the movie! Speaking of which, anyone reading this thing happen to be going to Anime Los Angeles? It'll be my first year... and wow I'll be 18 then. I CAN BY YAOI AT MY NEXT CON WHOOPEE! It's the only good thing about my birthday, I think. Anyway they're having a STEAMPUNK day this year which I couldn't possibly miss. I'll take the train and sneak in if I must. I'd so love to go as Glitch... or Azkadellia!! but gawd talk about complicated costumes an amateur with no money such as myself cannot possibly make in three months. I so wish though.

See?! This whole post has been immature babble. I shouldn't bother you people with it but I can't bring myself to completely lock my journal. It would kill me inside, weird as that sounds. I guess if I write something, it's meant to be read. Words aren't meant to be kept hidden away from everyone, even if only a few can see. So if I manage to put my thoughts on lj, I won't lock them unless something is really going down.

:sigh: I'm all talked/typed out. Someone drop me a line! I'm bored. Haha. BTW if anyone wondered I just used the avatar randomly. I missed it. Haven't used it in so long...

Oooh lookit I've stopped wangsting.

2009-10-07T07:25:04Z

You can all uncover your eyes now, those who read my last post. I've stopped being weird and overly-angstful. I might play very well into a lot of teen drama cliches, but I'll be damned if I write about them all the time on lj.

Anyway. Reading Terry Pratchett's "The Truth" again, which I love. And I bought "Monstrous Regiment", which I reread immediately because it always makes me squeeful inside. :sigh: And I read "Small Gods", which I hadn't gotten to before but loved and can be blamed for my bad and angstful behavior. Nothing like a book on religion and the death of gods to make you spill your guts in a blog, I suppose.

In any case... I want yaoi for it. Am I the only one? 'Cuz sometimes I wonder. Does anyone else want to see Om/Brutha? Vorbis/Brutha? Om/Brutha/Vorbis? I feel slightly better because it's not like I want some viciously descriptive fanfiction or overly-detailed fanart of a god, a melon grower/prophet, and a... a Vorbis. (I don't even know what would be an accurate adjective to describe Vorbis. Those who've read the book may understand.) I just want something simple, except I specifically want to see the pairing(s). I'm afraid to look. I know it won't be there, and that makes me sad. :( But if anyone's seen any...! :waggles eyebrows meaningfully: Or has even read the book. Or any Discworld novel... And if you haven't, you should!

Notes for this post: I'm sure you're all wondering (not) why I always say "yaoi" instead of slash, m/m, shounen-ai, etc. It's because my mom knows what slash is (I use that second-most often) and not yaoi. So when I speak with my friends, I say "yaoi." Also, because I am more anime-oriented in life and more book-oriented online, but the anime terms are catchy and short and stick in the mind. I try to keep it short here, short enough to not need an lj cut, and I try not to litter people's friend pages. I hope I have succeeded in this., y

A txt

2009-10-06T09:13:16Z

A text I sent to my girlfriend a few minutes ago. I have left the txttlk, it's written exactly the same. It's not too bad though. If anyone wonders, I just started thinking about some things she said. She wants me to be more open, and make her feel special. It... confuses me, to say the least. I don't know why I want to post it, but probably because I'll more than likely never say any of the things I talk about. So I suppose I need to say this at least:

I can't tell u things sometime because wut would b left of me? I tell u, I tell u and then I let it out or some such and u say it's ok u understand ur here or we all feel like that for example... and then I'm left empty. Because I've given something over, my fear or my hope or my love and that's vital, it's vital to being me, to being human and it's been trivialized by understanding and comfort. It's been sympathized out of existance and then I'm empty... And wut else can u say? There's nothing to say. U'll say these things even if I tell u not to, even if u don't want to or don't believe it or it's not true because these kinds of thoughts leave a silence that must b filled and that's all u can possibly fill it with. So I don't say it. I stay silent and safe and I am free. Or not. It doesn't matter to much in the end, I suppose. But I certainly don't know how to make people feel special. Not rly. I can't make myself feel special, how can I... how can I make u feel special then? Idk. Maybe I'll figure it out. Idk. So many things I wanna say...

Idk. Maybe. I felt... Guilty. I should make u feel special. I should b more open. I had these thougths, thoughts I usually forget and I had to txt them because u deserve to hear them.

I feel like... Like... Idk. Like I'm always doing something wrong, or not enough. Or something. And the answer is so obvious, written in huge letters on the back of my head. And I spin around and around until I'm dizzy and lost and alone with thoughts spinning in my head and I feel so desperate but I never get my answer.

Hah. Haha. The light that writes the question I must ask blinds the eyes so I am forever in darkness. That's philosophy for u, that there.

A Change and Other Random Things

2009-09-09T05:24:14Z

First, I had said I have new cousins. Well, the day my cousin went into labor was the day an older cousin died in New York. Louella apparently decided that nobody was being born until she was laid to rest, and so today at 11am Eastern time, Louella was buried. At 11am Western time, Bryce and Blake were born. I'm sad at the passing of a beloved family elder, and I rejoice at the blessing of new life (though really, these are Kids #6 and 7, you gotta stop Dana!).

Randomly- I was just watching a Goofy Movie. <3! Why is there no Powerline/Max fic in the world? I waaaaant.

I also watched the end of Ghost Rider. I have a soft spot for that movie, I find it entertaining. It's verrrry cheesy, I know. But two things honestly scare the living shit outta me, absolutely positively. One- the Penance Stare thing, and the eyes go all like crusted-over, burning coals... Freaks the hell out of me. And two- Legion. Not overall, not really. Interesting concept but not so scary to see. However.

"My name is Leeeeeeeeeeeegiooon. For we are... -MAAAAAAAANNYYYYYY."

:sobs in terror:

I don't know why the fuck that scares me so much but Oh. My God. :continues sobbing: Just that one part, too. Just that quote, and the way it's said...

On a lighter note, OMG "9" COMES OUT TOMORROW. :is excited:

Pros and Cons

2009-08-31T23:30:51Z

Pro- I got into the classes I wanted, and they're awesome.

Con- The honors classes are closed and I can't get in this year.

Pro- I got a netbook.

Con- Rachel has gone crazy. She won't go to the doctor, she stopped taking calls... Don't really know if she even has cancer. Not that I want her to have cancer, but imagine if she lied... She's been lying about everything else...

Pro- My cousin Dana is giving birth today. Twins.

Con- My cousin Louella died today.

PRO- I SAW ICE AGE 3. <333333 BUCK!

There's really no con to that! I end this post on a happy thought. Yay.

Prayer

2009-08-13T20:45:34Z

Please pray for my oldest sister. She was just diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She is far too young to die, and she has three young children to live for.

I had this feeling, before I found out. I think the phrase "someone walked over my grave" describes it perfectly. And the only other times I had this feeling, I was told an hour or two later that someone close to me had died unexpectedly. I am, quite frankly, worried sick.

Hm.

2009-08-05T03:11:40Z

So I'm finally home again. Boy I miss lj! I'm going to try and post more often now that I'm home. I have a month before school starts and if my financial aid would go through then I could buy my books, but meh. I'll worry about that later. I... have nothing interesting to report! The most fun I've had this past week was watching Night at the Museum II (loved it) and buying a bunch of new crayons and colored pencils and markers and coloring stuff.

If anything interesting happens I'll post. Life is currently boring.

Wedded Bliss

2009-07-26T06:38:06Z

JON AND GLORIA ARE FINALLY MARRIED!!!!!!!!

So Jon is like my older brother, sort of. He is the son of my aunt's best friend, and I grew up with him and his younger sister Janelle around. And he got married today!!!! It's the kind of romance everyone wants, I guess. Gloria had a crush on him since elementary, two of their friends decided to get them together in junior high, and they've been together ever since. It's been fourteen years, and today they finally tied the knot. I'm soooo happy for them. And to have been able to go to their wedding was such an honor. They only invited people who had a serious impact on their lives, like Jon's father's friend from elementary school. I guess I've been around long enough- Jon knew me as an infant. They are such wonderful people, and to have been there... I'm very happy and squeeful right now, excuse me. I took lots of pictures and I'm going to make a mini scrapbook with all of the little stuff off of the favors and water bottles and things. And man, but they had a kickass soundtrack. Their playlist was awesome, it had the best songs... Take Five, Mushaboom, Billie Jean... lol it was greaaat. The wedding was absolutely beautiful. All the best to you, Jon and Gloria!!!! <3333

In other news, I'm dead tired. I've been out of town almost the whole month. Just as I decided to return to lj, I ended up with no internet except my phone, and I am not blogging from my phone. But the hotel I'm at has free internet, and I have free time, so here I am! I suppose I'll tell about the various trips later, it'll take to long now. Yea, let's skip that.

I signed up for fall classes. Five fall classes. Myths and Meanings, Chinese, the Art of Storytelling, English 102, and Special Interests in Theatre (which is actually a Circus class where you learn tightrope and juggling and stuff). All of these classes sound amazing and fun, and I'm afraid to drop any of them except English because the college might stop offering them. The problem is, I have enough trouble with two classes plus water aerobics! There's no way I can take five... I have one free day. Just one. TT.TT So I'll probably drop two classes, but I'm going to go to all of them the first day and figure out which ones I can live without until next semester.

My fanfiction reading has taken a turn for the worst. In a last ditch effort to not fall back into the Tin Man fandom yet (I love you all but I don't have time to read every fic posted since I left and that's what I'll end up doing), I dedicate a day to a fandom. Two days ago, I went through ff.net's entire stock of Ice Age fanfic. Yesterday was spend on Lion King. Today was the wedding. Tomorrow's plan> Balto. Then, I'm not sure but I'm delving further into my childhood and destroying (or vastly improving) cherished memories by adding slash to everything. Yet this too shall pass, as all things pass... *mystical voice*

Mm, I'm considering writing some uuuuuber blasphemy. That is what I have dubbed the story in my mind. I won't put my idea online, of course, but I want to write... Like, God's life. From before he created angels, the Fall of Lucifer, the Creation of Earth, most of the bible, all the way to after the Apocalypse. Maybe add in some aliens along the way. And am I putting in pairings? HELLZ YES I AM. I've had the idea for years but I've been afraid to write it for fear of retribution. But once I'm done, who has to know? XD

Ok now I'm definitely going to bed. My mom decided to watch CSI Miami and Horatio makes me ill. No really. Eugh. Good night, everybody!!!

Damn. DamndamnDAMN.

2009-05-21T05:34:31Z

Kris Allen just won American Idol. Adam Lambert deserved that spot. I won't begrudge Kris his accomplishment but DAMN! And I know it's only because everyone thinks Adam is gay. It really shouldn't matter, and it makes me sad that something so... superfluous can stand in the way of greatness. However, Adam is still amazing and I'm sure he'll go far. Good luck to all of our Idols tonight.

Writer's Block: Teenagers & Car Accidents

2009-05-21T05:30:18Z

Why do you think teenagers are involved in more car crashes than any other age group?

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Well, first, because they're just learning. They're over confidant and daring, and they think they know what they're doing when they don't. Or, overly cautious and jerky, nervous in their actions. Also, they try to impress people. Whoever they're driving with, friends or family or instructor, is there to be impressed by how well they handle the car. And they expect too much out of themselves. No one wants to be the statistic, and the whole world is pushing them to drive right. Learning to drive sucks.

I should know. I'm on a learner's permit. :P

WATCHMEN

2009-05-20T09:30:02Z

Soooo. Yet another movie I spent mostly making fun of. But I liked it, I really did! I made fun of Nite Owl II especially. Great guy, that one. :3 So anyway, yea. It could have been great, really great if they had done it as a miniseries like Terry Gilliam apparently suggested, but instead it was just pretty good. Also, what's with the ten million sex scenes? What did they have to turn it into a porno for, I mean, my mom was in that theater! I managed to look at Dr. Manhattan the whole frickin time, but I covered my face with my hat when people started going at it. Frickin rabbits. I had my problems with the movie, but it also had it's "omg that is so amazingly awesome do that again!" parts, so I came out happy. And Rorschach. Oh gawd Rorschach. Ever since I got home last night, I've done pretty much nothing but read Watchmen fanfic with him in it, even in class. Jeezus. I absolutely love him and Nite Owl/Rorschach is canon. No really I just know it.

Also, did anyone catch "Glee" on Fox tonight? I kinda love it now, can't wait for summer shows to start up. And Adam had better win American Idol tomorrow!

Ugh. K bed nao bai.

:deeeep breath:

2009-05-19T00:30:04Z

Mm. Hi all.

Sooo I've not updated for a long time. I've basically banned myself temporarily from LJ, if anyone was wondering. Reason: too addicted. It was becoming unhealthy and I've already got enough stuff I use to procrastinate with. Adding something as engaging as LJ will end with me flunking out of college. SO I took a hiatus. I made one amendment and one only - I looked up a Disney slash comm and joined. My brain randomly decided to obsess over Kocoum/Thomas from Pocahontas, plus I discovered Phineas and Ferb, and I needed to see if there was anyone else as crazy as I am. However, school is nearly over and I am hoping to get back into the swing of things. Gawd I've missed LJ, even if nobody's missed me. Especially the Tin Man fandom! Never met nicer people...

Anyway, updates!

School - yuck. I love my English class, but I need to get on the ball. History is... well, I love History itself, and the information is very interesting, but if it wasn't for that I would have committed suicide from the dullness. Water aerobics: hate one of the teachers. Never taking that class again! Next time I want a PE course, I'm taking circus. -.-; Nope, no more classes! I'll take a full load in the fall, but I couldn't have done it this semester.

RL Activities - I got to go to Prom! It was actually the prom that would have been mine, had I not graduated early. It was at the Aquarium of the Pacific and it was AWESOME. All the lights were off and we saw all the jellyfish in the dark. And we watched Hellboy 2 on the way home. (<333 Abe!)

RL Friends - omgwtf I have a girlfriend. Trial run. How did that happen?? I could have sworn I was straight... But, take things as they come, I guess. We've been dancing around the subject for a year anyway, so yea. It hurts my head to think about it, and I hate keeping things from my mom, but she's such a phobe I'd never get to hang out with any of my friends again.

Mental health - completely fucking crazy, as ever. I have, get this, Clopin Trouillefou in my head. This is the effect of getting a little too enthusiastic when re-watching Disney's Hunchback of Notre Dame after... :counts on fingers: eleven years. I remembered nothing, put the movie on and walked out of the room. I then heard Clopin singing in the beginning and nearly fell over by the end of the song. By that night I was telling people that I felt like a Zombie!Clopin was nomming on my brain, and by the next day he had created enough space for himself to stick around. I am currently trying to figure out why my subconcious felt the need to stick a 30-something year old Frenchman into my brain for, and meanwhile he convinced me to make him his own email. Goddamn gypsy bastard. (I actually love having him around, whether or not it means I've finally gone over the deep end. He's nicer than some other parts of myself, and I like the company. My head can be lonely.)

Movies - Saw Star Trek!!!!! <333 I loved it. It was AU, which was unexpected. There was random pairings, which I will not reveal to those who haven't yet been blessed by seeing the movie. You get to see a chibi Spock (age 10 or so, I guess) totally flip out and kick some kid's ass who's like, twice his size. Sulu also kicks ass, as Kirk quietly fails in the background. Kirk picks up later, though. Much love/hate subtext with Kirk, Spock, and surprisingly, McCoy (who is great). Scotty is awesomesauce, and I am officially in love with Chekov. He is the most adorable thing to walk across the big screen since Bambi came out, srsly. As soon as I saw him, I just kinda melted and he's adorable and I wanna hug him. :3 It's really fun to try and identify who people are as soon as they come on screen. In those times when it's too easy, try to recognize who's about to arrive just by the scene itself.

Also, Wolverine! WTF man. CGICGICGIgreenscreen!CGIgreenscreen!CGICGIrealppl. That was the movie. I went to see it with my girlfriend (that's weird to say...) and we don't even remember most of it. No, we weren't making out. Get your mind out of the gutter. We were actually making fun of it the entire time. Nearly fell out of our seats laughing at some points. Anyway, the only people worthwhile in my opinion were Zero (<3), random glimpses of Quicksilver and Toad (you weren't even meant to notice them, but I SAW THEM I DID), Gambit (<3333 :is obsessed and nearly broke girlfriend's hand when he came onscreen. twice.:), and Deadpool. For unknown reasons, I absolutely love Deadpool. What happened to him made me wanna cry, but on a funnier note - "This... is... X-MEN!"

You'll get that if and when you see the movie. ^.~ It was a lot more linear than most people said, and it did make sense (if you ignore the fact that practically every new X-Men franchise is a completely different continuity and so the movie only relates to the other new movies, not anything to do with the fucking comics, of course.)

I'm going to see Watchmen now, finally. I hope it's good. I might have to look away for a bit, 'cause I really don't feel the need to see a "penis the size of a minivan", as my girlfriend delicately put it.

Random info - Hexxus is the creepiest villain ever. I had never in my life seen FernGully before two days ago, but I saw a signature somewhere that said Tim Curry sounded like a transvestite rapist. He does. :shiver: "Toxic Love" is possibly the weirdest, creepiest, most perverted scenes I've ever seen in a children's movie. I'm learning to love it.

:looks over writing: Weirdest post yet, I think. Oh well. Life is strange.

Lucky Day

2009-02-13T22:37:15Z

I knew it. Thursday the 12th sucks badly for me. Examples - Water Aerobics class. I am not very fit, my legs are now killing me, and once I got out I grew icicles waiting to get picked up. Also - my cousin Chris came early. We cleaned like mad, then had to take care of his baby. Michelle is cute, though.

Now, Friday the 13th... Rocks. Chris is being mysteriously kind and pimped my iPhone, so now it is unbelievably awe-inspiring and wondrous. Erin took her daughter and went to visit her dad - W00t! And now, it's SNOWING. I've been wanting it to snow for five years! Every time it snows, I'm out of town, but this time I can see it coming down in my backyard. Everything is turning white and I am in a state of bliss.

No one ever believes me when I say this is my lucky day, but it's true. Oooh, and my mom got paid so I'm going to go grocery shopping for V-day. Imma make pancakes!

aisarete @ 2009-02-13T14:26:00

2009-02-13T22:28:21Z

I never before realized how places affect me. Returning to my own home after a period of absence is... difficult, to say the least. It induces a feeling of hopelessness, resignation, the desire to hurry and get home and have it be done with. Walking back into my house makes me nearly nauseous and usually exausted. Laughlin normally brings similar feelings, but more because we usually get there so late and not as depressing. Las Vegas is warm, a vaguely exciting and happy feeling, and I feel like I'm truly coming home. We normally stay at either the Stratosphere or the Palazzo, and I know the public areas there like my own home. My aunt's house is cold, slightly unnerving but still welcoming, with an endless optimism that "it'll be better this time." My uncle's home is comforting and makes me slightly giddy, more like going to a best friend's house where you call the adults "Mom" and "Dad."

Weird.

Writer's Block: Set Sail

2008-12-10T07:20:33Z

Spike and Angel, President Roslin and Gaius Baltar, Harry and Hermione—shippers often find pairings that the original author might have overlooked. What coupling of fictional characters would you most like to see?

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Ohhhhh I have so many crack pairings! anything odd or out there, that's me! but just... pairings that should canonically exist...

Cain/Glitch from Tin Man. I'd kill to see that in the show (more than it was).

trailer

2008-11-25T08:36:05Z

Went to see City of Ember at the movies. First trailer was for Inkheart, which I had no idea that it was coming out now. I've been waiting FIVE YEARS to see that movie. For the first time in my life, I really hyperventilated. I nearly had hysterics... I'm not yet recovered.

On another note, The Spirit looks amazing, and Ember was good but not like the book.

...ded

2008-11-11T07:27:06Z

My head is KILLING me. I have had so much go on... Why must NaNoWriMo be in November?!

So far:

My aunt came to stay. *dies*

I was enrolled in driving school. It was on Saturday and Sunday, and it was all lecture. EIGHT HOURS STRAIGHT! *dies a lot* But I passed. Now I just have to pass the permit test...

I dropped the ONE class I had--Poetry. The teacher said I'd never get a good grade because I didn't have enough life experience. HE DOES NOT KNOW ME! *angry* But I wasn't going to drop it at first. When I went to the art show we were required to do a poem about and all of the photos were extremely boring and uninspiring, I knew I was in the wrong place. *sigh* I'm taking some normal classes next time, screw that.

I wrote half of my friend's research paper for her. I didn't mean to; I was helping edit and it was reeeeeally late and I think I sleep-wrote it. I don't remember knowing half of the stuff on there. It looks nice though, so it's all good.

One good thing is that my mom got another offer to stay at the Palazzo in Vegas again. We'll probably go on Thursday. Bad thing is, I'll probably be on my period.

We'll be going to Lake Tahoe for my birthday. I do NOT want to spend eight hours in the car ON MY BIRTHDAY while ON MY PERIOD to go to a place in the middle of NOWHERE with my mom and two crazy, angry aunts who get pissed off when playing board games.

Of course I haven't gotten to write anything, why? Did you think I'd get anything done? I don't know why I fool myself every year; November is one of the busiest months for my family.

I've had drama with my birth mother. well, she's a major drama queen anyway. But she was trying to get me tor respond to her emails, and I didn't have the time, but she wouldn't stop! So finally I told her off, a bit, and then she was all insulted. And now I haven't been emailing and she's wondering why, but I still don't have time to explain it. There is no way I'd give her this account, though it would explain things to her.

It looks like I might not get to go to any conventions. There's LosCon, the sci-fi convention at the end of November that I CAN'T GO TO. There's ALA, the anime convention ON MY MOM'S BIRTHDAY. And then there's Gallifrey One, the Doctor Who convention in February. That one costs $35 for ages 16 and younger... So I'd have to buy the tickets in four days or pay $55 instead.

Obama won! HAPPINESS!

Prop 8 passed! UBER-SADNESS!

I have to get up at eight am tomorrow to get the door for the freezer and stove my mom bought, and help my friend with her final draft, while my mom is at Dr. Phil with her church group. Gah.

I'm going to bed. *falls over*

Writer's Block: Ghost Stories

2008-10-28T08:12:58Z

Everyone enjoys a ghost story. Or at least knows one. What is the scariest ghost story you've ever heard?

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I saw a ghost once. I was spending the night on the Queen Mary---absolutely beautiful place--and we stayed in a room with no window. When you turned of the lights it was pitch black. I woke up in the middle of the night and saw a woman. She was floating above me, and I thought for a second she was a banshee. I covered my eyes with my hands and jumped out of bed, and I ran to the bathroom. I stayed there for hours with the light on... It's not the only weird thing that happened while we were there, either. I was terrified most of the time.

Animagic and other things

2008-10-22T03:12:43Z

SO! Last weekend was Autumn Dream, which was epic fun. I have awesome new pins, got to carmelldansen with V from V for Vendetta, helped float rocks with Toph from Avatar: The Last Airbender and sic-ed Nurse!Joker on my completely obsessed friend while I chatted/shared water with Scarecrow. Another few friends had bought an Artist Alley table, and half of the con-goers ended up behind the scenes with us at some point. I congo-lined with Itachi and Deidara of Naruto, and watched Nurse!Joker do the Shooting Star dance. There were sour gummi worms and free granola bars to be had, and very pretty half-naked Pikachu cosplayers. I made Good Omens cupcakes! MMMMM WHATCHA SAY?!?!?! Gawd I can't wait until next year!

Speaking of which, I might get to go to Anime LA next year, which would be so great, and if I'm good and lucky, DR. WHO CONVENTION WOOT!

All in all, it's been a good weekend. Now I'm watching Star Wars (for the first time EVAH) and reading fanfic. Yeyz!

Writer's Block: Reconsidering Children's Books

2008-10-18T07:13:29Z

Have you ever gone back and re-read a book you loved as a child only to find it incredibly disturbing now that you're an adult? Like The Giving Tree, for example: a terrifying tale of self-sacrifice or a reassuring story of maternal love?

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I have yet to find a book more disturbing later than I had before. However, I've found a lot of things to be much funnier, and gained more insight. And, of course, found many more pairings.

Crossovers that just won't happen? Or ideas for NaNoWriMo?

2008-10-17T07:41:08Z

Sooooooo. I was watching Aladdin, and it turned Tin Man on me. So now I have a whole idea for a fusion between the two, and I'm wondering whether I should take the easy route and just try that for November, or acctually work on one of my original stories that are mouldering in my binders. I have two character lists, one with het and one with slash. The slash one would be more interesting because I could fit more odd people into Aladdin characters, but the het one makes a lot of sense and I really should try my hand at serious het sometime, right? I haven't figured out the whole het list, though.

Aladdin - Glitch
Abu - Raw
Carpet - DeMilo
Genie - Queen Lavender
Jafar - Azkadellia
Iago - DG
Sultan - Mystic Man
Jasmine - Cain
Raja - Jeb
Guards - Longcoats
Prince Achmed - Airofday
Mozenrath - Zero

Zero is Mozenrath because I'm in love with Mozenrath and both of them deserve more screentime. Yes, I know Mozenrath may as well not exist in the movies, but I seriously love him and I won't write an Aladdin story without working him in. For the het list...

Aladdin - Glitch
Abu - Raw
Carpet - DeMilo
Genie - Mystic Man
Jafar - Sorceress
Iago - Lonot
Sultan - Queen Lavender
Jasmine - Azkadellia
Raja - DG
Guards - Longcoats
Prince Achmed - Vy-sor
Mozenrath - Zero

I'd totally be working in other stories and characters, plus original characters depending on how it works out. The Resistance would make excellent thieves, for example. A lot of very minor characters from Aladdin (street kids, harem girls, etc.) would be getting bigger parts. And in both stories, either "Jasmine" or "Aladdin"--or both--might end up with "Mozenrath". The idea is pretty formed in my mind, but it will be so long, I'm afraid to tackle such a major story if no one would be interested in it. If anyone thinks this is worth a further thought, tell me or I'll just move on to planning my original story.

On a different note, anybody ever seen Matilda? It's based on the Raold Dahl book, and I totally used to want to be her. Also, I think it would be the easiest possible thing to cross over with Harry Potter. And I have recently decided that I ship Matilda/Harriet, from Harriet the Spy. I watched those movies sooooo many times as a kid.

Writer's Block: Unnecessary Objects

2008-10-17T07:03:36Z

Oscar Wilde, a dandy’s dandy, once said that “we live in an age when unnecessary things are our only necessities.” What unnecessary possession can you not live without?

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Mmm. My iPhone. Having a cell phone is a necessity for me, but being able to carry my tunes with me is something I'd never want to give up.

SONG MEME

2008-09-22T08:49:12Z

Oooh, totally stolen from luchia13. It's fun; I didn't know I have half of the songs I do.

Step 1: Put your iPod player on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 32 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

IMPORTANT NOTES - 4 and 12 are both mash-up songs, so you have to guess both the song and the artists! 20 is the same song in German and English, and you have to get both titles

1. something takes a part of me/something lost and never seen {the lovely luchia13!!}

2. I wanna play on my addiction/wanna take every chance

3. pressure pushing down on me/pressing down on you no man ask for

4. here come old flaptop/he come grooving slowly OR you let me violate you/you let me desecrate you {luchia13!!!}

5. I've got a secret/I cannot say

6. a terrible thought has moved into my mind/like an unwanted roommate drunk on wine {luchia13!!!}

7. we don't wanna sleep tonight/still young like that I count the lines

8. where are we/what the hell is going on

9. I didn't want to know/I just didn't want to know

10. laundry day see you there/under things tumbling {luchia13!!!}

11. been given 24 hours to tie up loose ends/to make amends

12. with a taste of your lips/I'm on a ride OR I am a little bit of loneliness/a little bit of disregard

13. we've sailed away on a winter's day/with fate as malleable as clay

14. I confess I messed up/dropping ''m sorry' like you're still around

15. slow it down some no split clown bum/your old hit sound dumb hold it now

16. when I was a young boy/my father took me into the city

17. feels like you made a mistake/you made somebody's heart break

18. it's just the way it goes and everybody does/hey nobody said I can't

19. inside out upside down twisting beside myself/stop that now 'cause you and I were never
meant to be

20. Wir sind durch die Stadt gerannt/Haben keinen Ort mehr erkannt OR we were running through the town/our senses have been drowned

21. I'm sleeping my way out of this one/with anyone who will lie down

22. in this farewell there's no blood/there's no alibi {luchia13!!!}

23. never made it as a wise man/couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing {luchia13!!!}

24. forfeit the game before somebody else takes you out of the frame/and puts your name to shame {luchia13!!!}

25. disappear disappear vanish vanish/into the air {luchia13!!!}

26. tell me exactly what am I supposed to do/now that I have allowed you to beat me

27. the moment I said it/the moment I opened my mouth

28. it started when an alien device did what it did/and stuck itself upon his wrist with secrets that it hid

29. I have a problem that I cannot explain/I have no reason why it should have been so plain

30. can anybody find me someone to love/every morning I get up I die a little

31. I am so high/I can hear heaven {luchia13!!!}

32. what you see is what you get/fishing for the answers with a line and sinker

mEgo - because it's there and so am I

2008-09-10T21:14:54Z

Book Meme! XD

2008-07-01T04:47:29Z

Soooo here's a meme thingy. It's list of books from the Big Read, and it's stolen from <lj user="surranndie">'s post.

According to The Big Read, the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books on their list.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.

2) Italicize those you intend to read.

3) Underline the books you LOVE.

4) Reprint this list in your own LJ.

1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series - JK Rowling (can I, like, triple-bold this??? yeah, I’ll go 3-b)
5. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6. The Bible (3-b)
7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman (3-b)
10. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch - George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams (3-b)
26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck (I need to finish it)
29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (3-b)
34. Emma - Jane Austen
35. Persuasion - Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (3-b)
37. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38. Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41. Animal Farm - George Orwell
42. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery (6-b!!! 6-b!!! I love this book!)
47. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49. Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50. Atonement - Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52. Dune - Frank Herbert
53. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63. The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
69. Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70. Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72. Dracula - Bram Stoker
73. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett (3-b)
74. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses - James Joyce
76. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal - Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession - AS Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte's Web - EB White
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94. Watership Down - Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Thief of Time

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WATCHMEN

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Lucky Day

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Writer's Block: Set Sail

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Writer's Block: Ghost Stories

Animagic and other things

Writer's Block: Reconsidering Children's Books

Crossovers that just won't happen? Or ideas for NaNoWriMo?

Writer's Block: Unnecessary Objects

SONG MEME

mEgo - because it's there and so am I

Book Meme! XD

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